Never Been In Love

I'm in love with love
But I've never really been in love
I write about how I felt it in my veins
But honestly I only feel it when the ink hits the page
Don't get me wrong, I've been fascinated
By a few different beautiful souls
But I would never call it love
I wanted it to be love, but it never was
I've fallen in love with smiles
And the way they made me feel alive
I've gone crazy over laughs
That have echoed in head
But never been in love
I've been sleepless some nights
Replaying thoughts of you in my mind
And contemplated saying that I love you
Even though I never loved you
Because I've never been in love
I've written novels about your eyes
Entire chapters focusing on just the twinkle
And the way they light up in the moment
And about how much I loved them
But I've never really been in love