Hush

Sometimes I get sad and cry
Then put on a smile and lie 
And say everything is “fine”
While my soul quietly dies inside
And my mind fills with words that I can never speak
So I suffocate them until these words are too weak
To ever slip out past my tongue into the air
And float around everywhere
So that everybody can breath them in
And know how I truly feel within...
No, I need to hide it
No, I need to fight it
So I hold back another tear before it drops down from my eye
Try to hush the demons that are brewing in my mind
Carve another smile upon my face 
Wipe the blood, so there is no trace
Of the lies and deceit
The broken promises and defeat 
I hold them all in, I can't let them see me like this
So I lead them down the abyss
Of who I want them to perceive me to be
But that man isn't me 
No, he is so very different and foreign
But I am so depressed and so borin'
Maybe one day I'll let the world meet me
But right now, I just don't think I'm ready