Broken Ladder

Smiles fly by 
At heights I can’t seem to reach
I jump and flail
Only to find myself empty handed again
I see the eyes of my Father and father
Wondering if I will ever get it right
But I can’t seem to fly
My feet are stuck to the ground
The sounds of sirens all around
Time is running out
Yet still my fingertips are nowhere near
The smiles that keep soaring by
My peers climb ladders to the 
Highest points of success
But all of my steps appear to be
Snapped in half
I try to repair them 
Climb up as fast as I can 
Only to discover that my tape is too weak
And my feet slide back to the ground
Once more
I see smiles morphing to the faces
Of those all around
And each of their eyes look down
At me and wonder aloud
If I will ever climb higher 
Than the place where I stand 
They smile and say I must climb my ladder
But they can’t seem to see
From the heights where they be
That my steps are snapped 
And I have nothing to climb
My mind races 
And collides into demons
Who only weigh me down deeper
Into the ground
And yell louder than any voice
That smiles are not meant for people like me
You see
My ladder is broken beyond repair
I must accept the ladder that I’ve been given
And sink into the pits where I belong
Deep in the earth
Away from the smiling faces
Whom I would only despair
It is only fair
After all, my steps are snapped