numb

I am feeling incredibly lazy today. All I want to do is lay around and watch Netflix. I've already watched five episodes of BoJack Horseman (which is an incredible show, by the way.)

I don't know how to break it-- my laziness. My lack of motivation. My desire for sleep. For nothingness.

I feel numb.

That may be a better way of putting it. Numb.

It's all a part of the cycle, though. Sometimes I feel everything-- the breeze, the birds chirping, the air in my lungs-- and sometimes I feel nothing. And right now, I feel nothing.

But I will push through. I always do. Soon enough I will have feeling back in my fingertips. I will not be able to get the pen out of my hand. I will be writing and writing and writing. 
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But right now I am numb. And all I want to do is sleep.