The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly Challenge

In my last post, I talked about how people try to create these mirages about who they really are on social medias. I talked about how people are afraid to show their true colors on the internet and how they want to create this perfect, unbroken image of themselves. They think that unbrokenness is beautiful, but they are wrong. The ability to admit and show your brokenness is true beauty. Being able to display your scars and not hide them, that is beauty. Because you know what? Everybody is broken, just nobody likes to admit it.

Well, what I want to do is to change the way that we view the internet. I want people to be comfortable revealing their true selves online for the world to see. I want us to live in a world of open vulnerability and humility and to bask in its beauty. I want people to show every single side of themselves. The good, the bad, the ugly, all of it. And I feel that I should start with myself.

The Good

• I am an extremely motivated individual. For example, this last year I lost over 40 pounds, I started my own website, I've been working on a full length movie script, and even through many rejections and stumbles I continue to work my ass off.
• I am less than a month away from graduating college. Since day 1 college has been a complete struggle for me. I was homesick, I hated my major, I struggled to make friends, and I have struggled to discover what the hell I want to do with my life. Yet, through all of that, I still managed to finish. #Baller.

The Bad

• I can sometimes be an asshole. Sometimes I like to make fun of people, but I mean it all in good fun. But, admittedly, sometimes I take it too far. I'm sorry.
• I said earlier that I am a very motivated person, but when it comes to things that I don't want to do (aka homework), I become very unmotivated. When it comes to completing a homework assignment, I will procrastinate like nobody's business.

The Ugly

• I suffer from a pretty bad case of anxiety. I will have anxiety attacks in the middle of a large group of people, in the middle of taking a shower, or even when I lie alone in my bed. At times this anxiety is crippling. It keeps me locked inside my house for days and makes it very difficult for me to ever meet new people. It has kept me from doing small things like hanging out with friends to bigger things like accepting certain job opportunities, no matter how much I know I would love to do them.
• I have really bad trust issues that prevent me from truly trusting anybody in my life. I keep so many things bottled up inside of me because I just don't trust the people around me. I don't want to tell them my secrets, because I feel that they will spill them for the world to know.

So, there you go. I challenge you to all post and share the good, the bad, and the ugly things about you. Let's change the way we use the internet. Let's be real, because I'm sick of all these posers on the internet. Let's be real, let's teach the world it is okay to be yourself. Let's teach the world that you don't need to hide your scars. You can show them. You will still be accepted. You will still be loved. Let's show the world the good, the bad, and the ugly.